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Feb
08

Please report poaching on the Lower Stanislaus!

Paul Menard on Feb-8-2010

Poachers! 

Please report poachers on the lower Stanislaus River below Goodwin Dam. This has been a wonderful fishery for many years and I would hate to see a few bad seeds ruin it for everyone! I’ve been finding these empty worm containers which are prohibited here. This is a 0 bag limit fishery. Barbless hooks and artificial flies and lures only! Please report poachers directly to … 1 888 DFG-CALTIP (888 334-2258)

Thank you! PM

Feb
07

The River is the Word…

Paul Menard on Feb-7-2010

Flyfish 

“Your joy will be like a River overflowing its banks!”  John 16:24

 The Message

Lowering myself slowly into the cold turbulent water just below the dam I felt the Lord speak to me again about His nature and His plan for my life.

The River is the Word and it feeds me.

Spending time in the river has become obsession for me. It feeds me with truth and allows me to be free in it’s joy. Looking up into this waterfall as it spills into the rocks below me and begins the cycle of a new river I become enamored with what He is speaking to me.

This source of power is ever changing. I notice that. If one looks closely you can detect that these water molecules take different forms as they become one even flow. From the heavy mist to the largest water droplets. With careful examination it has become the Word speaking differently yet consistent in it’s message. There are certain variables that are within the river which don’t change. Powerful, present, wet, moving, consistent, and untamed. I like to think of these constants as Truth, Strength and Grace. Unless I’m in the river and the river is in me I tend to live subjectively and fail to recognize why I exist. I exist to magnify the river, not the other way around.

This wetness  has fruit if I sit still in it’s presence and allow it to fill me. I long for this fruit because I know that it is what keeps me coming back to the river. Unlike a long drink of water that satisfies your thirst, the more I drink of the river the thirstier I become.

I have an insatiable appetite for this River, this Word. It comes from Him, the source of the River. He pulls me there and causes me to admire Him. And if I sit still in His presence His joy consumes me.. Today I remain in His presence.. and my hope is for all to see this joy inside me! for it is overflowing it’s banks. I cannot contain the river inside me…

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Feb
06

Home is where your heart is…

Paul Menard on Feb-6-2010

“Make yourself at home in my love.”  John 15:9  The Message

“You didn’t chose me, remember, I chose you…” John 15:16  The Message

Jesus is so amazing!!! I love Him so very much, because He loves Me. This morning I woke up with Him on my mind and wanting, desiring a special touch. He speaks to me in whispers very frequently and when I’m abiding in His love I can hear those things He says. I asked Him to speak a little more deeply into my life this morning. I pressed in where I should press in. Into His presence.

There is this thing in me that needs Him more than any other affection and It is something He gave me in His Son. He knows me like the River knows me and searches my mind for elements of connection. The current, the eddies, the pocket water, the falls, the sounds, the colors, the shapes, the smells, and the way the River feels. He knows all of these places in my heart.

I don’t know why he chose me except that His love is beyond my imagination. How can the Creator of the universe know this little speck on the planet and reveal Himself to me in a way that my Spirit cries out to Him in thanksgiving? Today He spoke to me again. Fresh. Fresh wind and fresh fire dousing me with love.

He knows my every thought and He is ok with that. He knows my short attention span and of course He is ok with that too. He made me after all. And today He loves me for the passion He created in my heart too. A passion to serve Him, know Him and let Him be known. He made me a light not to be hidden under a bowl…but to love the way He loves me! I’m His! Wholly His..and He knows me…yes..He knows me well..

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Feb
06

The moment is right…

Paul Menard on Feb-6-2010

Me & the River 

“Jesus Christ is the same yesterday and today and forever.”  Hebrews 13:8

Yesterday on the river was one of the best I have ever had! Did I catch anything. No. But my experience was unique and a reminder of how precious every moment we have here on earth is. God told us all our days are numbered and we have enough time each day to live it completely. His mercies are new every morning and live one day at a time are avenues in which we can create small stories within our bigger story.

I tend to live in the moment and try to suck as much out of a day as I can. I get up early and already my mind is searching how to spend the day. I often get caught up thinking that there won’t be a tomorrow and force myself  on others. I press in. Yesterday was unique because I was told that I have some more tomorrows and that I don’t have to press in so much today. I’m thankful for their perspective into my life. It really has taken me all night and this morning to see that. Their patience has slowed me down…a tiny bit. I know my nature is to press in and yet I feel I need this other side to relax some. Balance. It’s what I miss many times.

Now I’m aligning myself with Christ who is in yesterday, today and tomorrow. I’m asking Him to settle me in more, to have more balance and to be freer this way. Such a heavy burden to take off my shoulders and yet I wouldn’t have seen it if they didn’t speak it to me. I’m thankful and a little scared and a little closer to where I need to be to reach into my story with my casting hand…

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Feb
04

Stirring in my heart…

Paul Menard on Feb-4-2010

So many emotions running through my mind as I lept off the rock anticipating the slap of the water below me some 57 feet. This was an area of freedom and joy stirred together with exhilaration and pure adrenaline. I have climbed these canyon walls so many times and yet there is always the threat of  a rock slipping out or a foot hold to break. Dangerous? Very! Yet I continue to push myself into these places.

I have often thought that my need for excitement stemmed from some inner rage or need to have a thrill fix and maybe some of it is, but there’s more than that. There’s the fact that I am a man and as men we need the challenges that take us to the edge of ourselves. It’s a different scale for each one of us, but by failing to fight these battles will leave us emasculated and bored. To live a nice quiet life without any distractions. Really? I can’t believe that so many men choose to settle for such mediocre lives.

I believe personal challenges are healthy because they stir our hearts and makes us more confident to be who God intended us to be. Jesus would challenge us if He were to visit us. He challenges me everyday. By getting out in the raw organic nature of the Sierra  feeling the granite under my feet and scraping my knees on the pine logs I hop over is all part of the conditioning for the other trials I face.

This stirring in my heart needs to be satisfied. If not I will collapse into a puddle of  TV and couches slugging my way through the day with little motivation. I feel alive when I fly fish. It makes me want to share my faith in God with others, because God is so incredible and He is just waiting to challenge us with the outdoor wonderland He made! Jesus is calling me to the River and He knows me…He’s calling you too if you will only take a risk…Let Him stir your imagination and pull you away from the mundane..Listen..He’s talking now…

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Feb
03

God’s grip

Paul Menard on Feb-3-2010

Grip it 

“I pulled you in from all over the world, called you in from every dark corner of the earth, Telling you, ‘ You’re my servant, serving on my side. I’ve picked you. I haven’t dropped you.’ Don’t panic. I’m with you. There’s no need to fear for I’m your God. I’ll give you strength. I’ll help you. I’ll hold you steady, keep a firm grip on you.”

Isaiah 41:9-10 ~The Message

Sometimes when we have doubts about our future it is a good thing to spend time in God’s Word and allow His truth to penetrate our anxieties and smooth out our emotions. Our God is a Mighty God who is steadfast and true! He never lets us down. God is good….all the time!

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Feb
02

The invitation… A modern fly fishing parable

Paul Menard on Feb-2-2010

Long before time existed there brewed in the imagination of the old fly fisherman a hope of lush green mossy river banks and tumbling white water where fish and river live in perfect harmony. This garden of joy and river of life would bear the mark of the old fly fisherman and be pondered as He waded amongst His scaly friends.

One day as His two chosen rainbow trout were swimming about in the river of wild innocence and freedom to travel as they pleased, they became interrupted as a sly water snake slithered between them. This serpent of ancient days enticed the female bow to an afternoon of indulgence eating off of the only weed beds that were restricted by old man fly fisherman. “How come you don’t eat here?”, he whispered beside her red gill plate. “Oh, that is the weed bed of knowledge and we must never eat of it!”, she exclaimed. Yet soon that sneaky reptile had convinced her that she was entitled to this knowledge and she became prideful and even seduced the male rainbow to eat of it also!

The next day the fly fisherman came to the river’s edge to watch His fish playing, yet instead He found them trying to hide in the white water and under the rocks. “where are you little ones?”, He gently tried to persuade. “oh what have you done?” And this became known as the day the river fell. From here on a disruption between the fly fisherman and the trout began.

The fly fisherman in His wisdom had created an alternate plan to convince His fish that they were meant to have fellowship with Him. So  He spent many an afternoon tying tiny masterpieces of aquatic angels and tiny fly insects with well adorned feathers, tinsel and thread. His knowledge of the trout was complete and each fly He tied was hand tailored for every single fish that swam in the garden. By the time the female trout had taken of the weed bed of knowledge the old man had invented and filled two mighty fly boxes in all their glory with these delightful morsels.

There still remained a missing piece to present the fly to the fish, so in the great mind of the fly fisherman He fabricated the perfect tool to reach across the chasm of death which separated Him from the trout. A section of split cane bamboo with enough elasticity to bend and compliment the water’s power and fine string to hold the fly securely would serve as the ultimate sacrifice. This fine work of art would be cut and re-cut, pressed and fired, laminated and fit with 7 smooth ilets and a warm cork handle until it was fashioned precisely for the duty of winning the lost fish. It would be so masterfully original that one could not tell where the fly fisherman’s arm ended and the rod began. An extension of Himself really.

As time progressed and the sun began to fall red orange melting into the purple sky the old man began His approach to find these lost souls. It was so beautiful a moment when He began to pull line from His reel that one could almost feel His presence yet not know if He was even there. And slowly with elegant back strokes and forward motion He drew more line out with each sweeping movement. At last when He dipped His wrist slightly and allowed His dry fly to land softly on the seam of  distant pocket of water the female trout rose to take a closer look.

This invitation was incredible. she thought, “Perhaps even more delicious then the weed bed of knowledge!” And so swiftly she bit into the delicate fly and just as her mouth felt the shiny object the old man lifted His cane rod up high and all who swam by were drawn to it’s sight!

Courteous and patient yet firm the fly fisherman brought her closer to His side where He could enjoy watching her form again. He became mesmerized by her beauty and thought, “This was how we were meant to live! Side by side, connected yet free.” And as she came close enough to see His face He turned and released her from the fly and back into the white water where she rested and pondered these things in her heart, “This old man really loves me! How could He give so freely and even after I disobeyed he loved me enough to come after me and draw me to His side. I will look for Him now. And I will take His invitation when He presents it so nicely! Oh, how free I feel right now! Oh, how free…”

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Dam moss

Feb
01

Quote of the month

Paul Menard on Feb-1-2010

Gasping 

“When you find yourself in times of trouble and start to play the blame game, just remember…Your issues is you!”

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Jan
31

Foam trail

Paul Menard on Jan-31-2010

Pocket 

The foam trail that comes out of this white water is a great location to cast. Trout love it! Insects get caught in the foam and make for easy pickings. Sometimes you’ll get fish up in the foam and sometimes deeper. Always be prepared for a hook up! I short line nymph with a tandem setup. Roll casting. Setup~ 1 split shot followed by 15″ of line followed by a #14 flashback hare’s ear another 15″ of line with a #24 bh caddis pupa on the bottom. Cast on both sides of foam trail and allow the flies to go down keeping the fly line out of the water as much as possible. If you are getting moss on your flies every couple casts then you are deep enough to get the fish! Remember… the difference between a good day fishing and not is 6″ along the bottom! Tight Lines!

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Jan
30

The River within…

Paul Menard on Jan-30-2010

River rage 

“Indeed the River may rage, Yet he is not disturbed.”    Job 40:23

Climbing down these slippery rocks with the heavy mist beginning to saturate my outer layers and the pounding rage of the crashing water drowning every sound with it’s white noise I had complete peace.

There have been times where my anxiety has become overwhelming with worries about my future and I am afraid there are of my friends who’s future may also look very bleak. Broken relationships, job loss, and sickness have become common place in these last days. I find when my heart is heavy I go the river and let Him pour into me again. Fill me Lord! Drown this emptiness! And the River knows my name, and He is right here…

“If anyone thirsts, let him come to Me and drink. He who believes in Me, as the Scripture has said, out of his heart will come rivers of living water.” Jesus

As I drove to the River yesterday I took a seat in my truck and left the passenger side empty. I then invited Jesus into my journey. “Here, have a seat. Let’s do this thing.” And I turned up the music and we departed to the place where He knows my name, where He speaks to my wild side and tames me with the raging water. Yes, the River is Jesus and He knows me.

I try often to do this. To invite Jesus into my heart regularly. He takes the venom out of the sting, caresses the sore muscles of my consciousness, and rubs salve into my teary eyes.

He motivates me to move to an area where the River within flows to others. I remember His goodness, the cross, His everyday presence and that confidence allows me to pour into others. And bring Jesus to their hearts. Glimpses of love packaged with grace and hope so alluring that they become irresistible. And it is natural for me to be the River too. I do it with laughter and youthfulness that He stirs into my personality. This is what I want the world to know…That this is Jesus…the River in my heart…He is what you see in that sparkle in my eye…and He is my gift to you…Here take the River in…and drink up!

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